*sighs* I....I give up. I thought I understood how to act...how to be there...I guess I was wrong.

It's hard to make friends in this fucked up world. Be thrilled when you do, and keep them close. It's rare to find a friend that is truly a friend....it's even rarer to find one that is close enough to be family.

I've been lucky enough to experience that in my life with a few select people. They have been the greatest friends....and better brothers and sisters than my own family. I'll cherish those relationships until the day I die.

But....sometimes those relationships don't last that long. Sometimes, people like me...do something to ruin them. I don't even know what I did....I just know it's my fault.

To my sister: You've been one of the best friends I've had since I can remember....ever. You've always been there for me and for that I thank you. I know life is busy now. For both of us, but especially you. And I know I haven't been the best brother or friend...I always have something to rant about....I always need a shoulder to cry on. You've always been there, and again...I thank you.

I've always wished there was a way I could repay you for being there....I just never seem to find out how.

And now....something's changed. I know you say you're busy....but I feel like something's wrong. I feel like I've ruined something. I feel like I've driven away another friend....and I don't know why.

Whatever I've done....whatever I did....I'm sorry.